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in good earneft to devote myself to God. My conviction was
deepened by hearing a sermon shortly after, by which so much.
light was poured in upon my mind, ihat I clearly discovered the
necessity of an inward change of heart. I began now to feel that
I had finned against God, as well as my parents. All my sins
food in array before me, so that I saw myself ftanding, as it
were, on the brink of a horrid precipice, just ready to fall into
chat burning lake,

" Where peace
And reft can never dwell, hope never comes,
That comes to all ; but torture without end
Still urges, and a fiery deluge, fed
With ever burning sulphur unconsumid.”

I sighed, wept, and prayed to God, to give me grace to bring forth fruits meet for repentance, to shew mercy unto me, and to pardon all my fins for the sake of his dear Son.

My master, who was a Class-Leader, perceiving a change in my conduet, invited me to a Society-Meeting. Here my mind was much enlightened by hearing the experience of others; and my resolutions were greatly strengthened ; so that about the beginning of March, 1775, I got a ticket as a member of the Society.

Two things, for fome time, hindered my receiving an assurance of God's favour. First, a thought that only a certain number could be saved, and that I was not of that number. Secondly, when I felt a little hope, I looked for the pardon of my fins in some kind of a miraculous manner. However, I resolved to wait upon the Lord; and if I was to perish, I was determined to perifh crying out for mercy. One Sabbath evening, as I was going to a Prayer-meeting, these words suddenly rushed upon my mind, “ Jesus, by the grace of God, tasted death for every man." Immediately I had such a sense of Christ's sufferings impressed upon my mind, as quite overwhelmed me. I saw him, as it were, suffering, bleeding, fainting and dying on the cross, for the souls of all men. Hence I reasoned, " If Christ died for all, then he must have died for me ; and therefore I ought not to doubt of the sufficiency of his merits to save me.” This gave me great ease and satisfaction: and when I entered the meeting, The first verse that was fung, had such an effect on my heart, as I had never be. fore experienced; and, while these words were on my lips, -“ And feel the sprinkled blood;” . I felt such an assurance of God's favour and mercy, as human language cannot express. I felt indeed the sprinkled blood applied ; and the Holy Spirit bore witness with my spirit, that I was now made a child of God.

Soon after this, meeting with a strony teinptation, my confi. dence was wrested from me; but by applying to the throne of grace, I had it presently restored, and was enabled to teftify with gladness to others what the Lord had done for my soul. "I now

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began to feel a very great concern for my relations, and earnestly longed for the conversion of my brothers and liflers; every day, and almost every hour, I petitioned the throne of grace on their behalf.

I went on pretty comfo tably, till the beginning of the next winter, when some Scripture texts were applied to my heart, which seemed to indicate a call to the ministry; But I thought it utterly impossible that I should ever preach the Gospel. While I was hearing a discourse from these words of St. Peter, “What was I, that I could withstand God ?” - My mind was eased, respecting what had perplexed me before, and I began to think, it was God's will that I should preach some time or other.

Soon after, I was called upon to exercise my gifts at Prayermeetings, in which I was sometimes blest, at other times having little liberty of speech, I was greatly cast down. One day in May, 1777, being much exercised about my call to preach ; I heard, as it were, a voice in my heart, saying, " Samuel ! Samuel !” to which I replied, "Speak, Lord, for thy servant beareth.” Immediately, these words rushed, like lightning, into my mind, "Go ye into all the world, and preach the Gospel to every creature." - I was astonished, and burst into a flood of tears ; and resolved to make it a matter of more constant prayer, that God would be pleased to make my way plain before me. After I had risen from my knees, on opening the Bible, these words first caught my eye, “ Feed my lambs.” This seemed a confir. mation of what had just paflied; and I gave myself to prayer, reading, and meditation, in such a inanner as I had not done before.

About the latter end of 1777, I began to exhort in public, and continued so to do, in the lule meetings near me, occasionally, till the month of February, 1779, when I was first encouraged to take a text.' In August following I was desired by the Allifant of the Circuit to supply the place of a Preacher who was appointed 10 labour there, but was not able to come. At the Conference in 1780, I was appointed to labour in the York Circuit; and the year following was received into full Connection at Leeds Conference. I entered upon this work with fear and trembling, being impressed with an awful sense of its great importance, and of my own inability, and inexperience. However, I was received by the people with kindness, tenderness, and respect; and God condescended to bless my labours among them.”

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Mr. Hodgson's bodily frame was rather weak: he often felt languor, and sometimes was feverely afflicted. To this were added great exercises of mind (though he had often divine consolations mingled in his cup) all which rendered itinerancy such a cross to him as healthy or robust persons cannot easily conceive: yet he fruggled with his infirinities to the very last, being willing not only to impart the Gospel, but his own soul also.

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In July 1789, he entered into the marriage-state with Miss Sarah Garhit, of Bradforth, and shortly after went with his wife to Bristol, where he was appointed to labour the ensuing year. This year he mentions in his journal as the most comfortable he i eyer experienced in his life; being very kindly treated by the people, and seeing some fruit of his labours : The next year he left them with reluctance, (being appointed for Leeds, though. he had the prospect of spending a comfortable time, in Yorkshire among his friends and relations. After an agreeable year in Leeds, he was appointed at the Manchester Conference for York, where he and his faithful companions laboured with considerable success; for two years.

At the Leeds Conference in 1793, he was appointed for Sun. derland. Here he met with a people who did honour to themselves and the Gospel, by that unceasing respect and affection: which they manifested to this servant of God and to his family. His appointment here, at the earnest request of the people, was : continued by the Bristol Conference in 1794. This alas ! was the last year of his life. To the unspeakable grief of all his friends, and to the great loss of the Church of Christ, he was drowned April 20, 1795, by the oversetting of the Pallage-boat in crossing the river Wear... ,

The ways of God are to us inscrutable: ..and though the cir.' cumstances of Mr. Hodgson's death were awful and sudden; yet, i upon a review of his general conduct and usefulness, we cannot doubt but he was called to his reward in a better world. It is wor..) thy of remark, that during the last week of his life, he had preached seven times, 10 different congregations in the country' places, from Amos iv. 1219 Prepare to meet thy God.” Indeed, he appeared to have near views of eternal. things; and some few. days before his death, when his wife enquired concerning the state of his mind, lifting up his eyes and hands, he replied with great earnestness, "I bless God, I find an unshaken confidence in him. . . uitwu srev... URI ;

He bad twice crossed the river the same day ;', and in the even. . ing he preached at a village about three iniles from Sunder- į land. He seemed a good deal exhausted with preaching ; but.. after a little : refreshment returned. He left his horse on the same side of the river where he had preached, and went into : the boat with his fellow-passengers and sufferers. The confusion n' connected with such a misfortune, prevents information which may be depended on. It is said with much appearance of truth, that he reproved some in the boat for swearing, a few minutes before it sunk. When the awful event took place, he exclaimed aloud, “ Lord Jesus, receive my fpirit, and have mercy on my . fellow-fufferers. It" Liusi in

. It is supposed, the melancholy event was occasioned by the boat being overloaded, and getting foul of a rope which lay in

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the passage, when it soon filled with water. About twenty perfons were drowned, most of whom were afterwards found. On the ninth day in the evening, Mr. Hodgson's body was found uninjured, on the sea coast, about two miles from the place where he was lost. It was brought into the chapel, and the next day interred in the presence of more than a thousand deeply affected spectators. Sovereign of heaven and earth! Though clouds and darkness be round about thee, yet righteousness and judgment are the habitation of thy throne.

Rules of CONDUCT, drawn up by Dr. DODDRIDGE, when a

Student, and inserted in the blank-leaves at the beginning of

his Bible. 1. TET my first thoughts be devout and thankful. Let me rife

L early, immediately return to God more solemn thanks for the mercies of the night, devote myself to him, and beg bis af. fiftance in the iniended business of the day. .

2. In this and every other act of devotion, let me recollect my? thoughts, speak directly to him, and never give way to any thing, internal or external, that may divert my aitention.

3. Let me set myself to read the Scriptures every morning. In the first reading, let me endeavour to impress my heart wiih a practical sense of divine things, and then use the help of Com > mentators ; let these Rules, with proper alterations, be observed every morning. .. i . Prasia i dari

4. Never let me trifle with a book with which I have no pre.' fent concern. In applying myself to any book, let me first recollect what I may learn by it, and 'then bog suitable assistance from God; and let me continually endeavour to make all my ftudies fubfervient to practical religion and ministerial usefulness.

5. Never let me lose one minute of time, nor incur unnecel. sary expences, that I may have the more to fpend for God.

6. When I am called abroad, let me be desirous of doing good, and receiving goodLet me always have in readinefs fome fubject of contemplation, and endeavour to improve my time by good thoughts as I go along Let me endeavour to render myself agreeable and useful to all about me, by a tender, compassionate,

friendly behaviour; avoiding all trifling, impertinent stories ; re- ; ... membering that imprudence is Sin.

7. Let me use great moderation at meals, and see that I am not hypocritical in prayers and thanksgivings at them. iii"? .

8. Let me never delay any thing, unless I can prove that ano: ther time will be more fit than the present, or that some more important duty requires my immediate attendance. : h i

9. Let me be often lifting up my heart to God in the intervals of secret worship, repeating those petitions, which are of the greatest importance, and the surrender of myself to his service.

i... 10. Never

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10. Never let me enter into any long schemes about future events, but in the general refer myself to God's care. simu! . 11. Let me labour after habitual gratitude and love to God and the Redeemer, practise self-denial, and never indulge, any thing that may prove a temptation to youthful lufts. Let-me guard against pride and vain-glory; remembering that I have all from God's hand, and that I have deserved the severest punishment.

12. In all my Rudies, let me remember, that the souls of men are immortal, and that Christ died to redeem them. " %

13. Let me consecrate my sleep, and all my recreations, to God, and use them for his sake.'iit. '?'

14. Let me frequently ask myself, What duty or what temptation is now before me. I'll

15. Let me remember, that through the mercy of God in a Redeemer, I hope I am within a few days of heaven. '

16. Let me be frequently surveying these Rules, and my Conduct as compared with them.. !

17. Let me frequently recollect, which of these Rules I have preient occasion for, ::.

18. If I have grossly erred in any of these particulars, let me not think that an excuse for erring in others. "

The above Rules, practically attended to, may be fingularly useful, not to Ministers only, but also to all private Chriflians who defire to improve their minds in useful knowledge, and to be uniformly and deeply pious.

J. E.

The SPIRITUALITY of the DIVINE Being..!! n Say, celestial Muse! whose purer birth tosi

Disdains the low material ties of earth; ji po
By what bright images shall be defin'd .,' ..og spins'
The mystic nature of th' eternal Mind? si je
Or how shall thought the dazzling height explore,".
Where all that realon can- is to adore... ift mit sit

That God's an immaterial'essence pure,
Whom figure can't describe, nor parts immure; *!!
Incapable of passions, impulse, fear, in i zio!
In good pre-eminent, in truth severe : i l
Uninix'd his nature, and fublini'd his pow'rsPromiji
From all the gross allay that tempers ours;

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Impervious to the man's or seraph's eye, .,!1;;.'
Beyond the ken of each exalted high ; ;
Him would in vain material semblance feign, M A
Or figur'd shrines the boundless God contain ;
Object of faith!-he shuns the view of sense,
Loft in the blaze of sightless excellence !

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