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He bowed, and she turned away.

"The proud, insulting girl!" he said, as the crowd, amid murmurs of 'capital''excellent '-' clever,' and laughter too wellbred to be loud, pressed onward with her, leaving us alone near a window which opened into the conservatory-"the proud, insulting girl! she shall regret this."

I could forgive him for the first sentenceit was natural; but the second was cowardly.

"At all events," I said, "you are her debtor. She has given you a new sensation."

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CHAPTER II.

-And where, ye haunts

Of grandeur and of beauty, shall the heart
That yearns for high communion with its God,
Abide, if e'er its dreams have been of you?"

WILSON.

MUSIC-I know I am very presumptuous to give an opinion so at war with that of the public-but I cannot avoid saying, that music has become so much of a science that it is no longer a pleasure! On that particular evening, rich in so many memories, our hostess had arranged—as was her custom—that there should be a couple of whist-tables, in a little book-room, which had not achieved the dignity of a library;—those who 'like a rubber,' are

generally quiet, unobtrusive, bygone 'elderlies,' who never enjoy anything but whist; and if they cannot get up a rubber,' make up their minds to be retired and 'injured' the whole evening; it is therefore expedient as it is kind and right, to cater for their fancy, and provide them with a single or double-action den, where, in silence, though not in obscurity, they can pursue what an old friend laboured for ten years to convince me was an intellectual enjoyment. I am quite willing to take it for granted, that all engaged therein believe it to be so in this world we are subject to many delusions. Helen had been car

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ried off in triumph, by a party of juvenile worshippers, to look at some rare flowers in a conservatory-followed there, as everywhere else, by a crowd; and my friend had entered into an argument with a little, round, florid, flushed gentleman, in a brown, queer wig, which stood up a good deal behind; his features were small, and, in his youth, must have been handsome, and his eyes were bright, not

with continuous, but a twinkling, light; his accent was 'frae the north' (what a patent those portherns have for growing talent); and, as I was not quite near enough to hear their conversation, and did not know who the gentleman was, I wandered away, little thinking I had looked my first and last on the author of The Battle of the Baltic.'

Well, I wandered into the whist-room, knowing I should be able there to gather my thoughts together for I was bewildered. I had met a score of people-any one of whom I would have gone a score of miles to look at just to look at! and, as poor Jerry would say, "then thank the Lord more than ever for my eyesight;" and I had heard them speak, and seen them-authors, sculptors, ministers of state, beauties, past and present, painters, poets-seen them all, and absolutely spoken to some, and marked them all rendering homage to that little mismanaged child, who received the homage as if she were a born queen. My nerves were not so shaken as on the first

night of the play, or even as at the reading of the play in the green-room, nor was I ill, as I had been at Mrs. Major Cobb's-but it was very wonderful; and for Helen, how dangerous she stood on such a height, with so little, nothing, in fact, to sustain her there! How was it I became haunted by the sorrow, that I had not been able to draw her and Florence into friendship?

That Marley! Now it is truth that I never thought of him without growing cold, feeling that I changed colour and must look like a ghost. So I began to think over those I had seen, and was seeing still, for the door was partly open, and many were walking up and down: the wide corridor. No one can be insensible to the actual living beauty of the women of England; it was glorious to watch. them as they passed. I tried to recall every word I had heard, so as to fix it in my memory; and I felt disappointed to find how little there was to carry away. But how silly!-how absurd to suppose that people who wrote books and

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