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very affectionately, I hope now, | sinfulness of sin. Again I resolvas you are going beyond the reached to go to chapel : accordingly I of a parent's eye, to a place where went, and expected in the course you will be surrounded with snares of the sermon to be brought under and dangers, you will not fail to the most dreadful convictions, but attend the ministry of the gospel | found myself exceedingly disapevery Sunday; and I particularly pointed, and was very much afraid

1 chapel your constant place of hear- | about a fortnight I was visited ing' My poor aged grandmother with a slight illness, which brought likewise gave me this necessary with it terror and uneasiness of injunction with tears in her eyes. mind not to be described. If I atI believe I promised rigidly to ob- tempted to pray, my thoughts serve them ; but the event has were filled with horrid blasphemy proved to my sorrow, that I aw- against the Almighty, insomuch fully broke my promise.

that I was afraid of being struck "On my arrival in London, I dead immediately. Oftentimes was introduced to circles appar- did I wish myself any thing but a ently strangers to the power of re-human creature, and as often was ligion; and Sundays being the I ready to charge God with injusonly leisure time I had, were usu- tice in creating me to misery ; for ally spent in visiting, idle conver- at that time I thought if there were sation, and, what I have since an elect people, it was not my own thought, dreadful profanation, but fault if I was eternally lost. Evnot without some convictions ; ery night brought with it new horfor I remember feeling rather un- I was afraid to close my comfortable at spending Sabbath eyes, for fear of waking in hell : after Sabbath without once enter- and then did I feel the dreadful ing a place of worship. At last I unbelief of my heart. I prayed formed a resolution of attending | earnestly to be enabled to believe constantly at Surrey Chapel ; but in Christ, but could not ; I thought after going twice, I was again at- it impossible that the Son of God tracted by gay company, which I should ever have died for sinners. thought preferable to religion. In this state I continued for some Here I must observe, that on re- time, being filled with the most trospection of my past conduct, 1 | dreadful thoughts of God and recannot but admire the restraining ligion, which I endeavoured to grace of God, whose power alone suppress ; till one night as I was withheld me from plunging into thinking of my unhappy condition, the depths of sin and wickedness, I happened to take up my Bible, which I well know was the natural and opened it at the sixty-first bent of my heart: often did Ichapter of Isaiah : the following curse my folly for resisting oppor-words met my eyes : I will greattunities of running into the gross- ly rejoice in the Lord, my soul est sins.

shall be joyful in my God ; for he 6. Thus I continued till the lat- hath clothed me with the garments of ter end of February, 1806. About salvation, he hath covered me with this time, I resolved to read my the robe of righteousness. The Bible, which had laid for nearly effect this had on me I cannot exthree years useless. My mind press; I wished myself alone to was then seriously impressed with give vent to my tears and joy; the thought of my being in a lost and thought then my proud, hard, condition, which led me to private and unbelieving heart was effectprayer, and to implore God that ually humbled and broken. With he would show me the exceeding Vjoy did I meditate on the words ;

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Mr. Lawson was early the sub- the week, and on the Sabbath days ject of religious impressions, and new scenes and new companions from a child was made acquainterl invited him to a kind of dissipawith the Holy Scriptures. These tion, to which before he had been impressions

afterwards | unaccustomed. Allured by these strengthened by the kind atten-specious baits, he forgot his prointions of the master to whose care ise to his father, neglected to read his education was intrusted. This his Bible, and seldom attended gentleman (Mr. Westfield) often any place of worship In this conversed with him, and prayed course he continued' for nearly with him in the most serious and three years, though not without affectionate manner, which, under many struggles of conscience. and the divine blessing, produced an resolutions to reformn. In one of indelible effect on his mind, and these serious intervals, he was led for which he afterwards felt inore to read his neglected Bible, and to grateful than for all his other fa- visit the forsaken chapel ; and it

Under the care of a per- pleased God by these means to son with whom he felt himself at convince him of his sins, and soon home, he soon began to manifestatter to deepen these convictions his prevailing genius. He com- by affliction, and at length to menced cutting different figures make himn experimentally acquainton pieces of wood, and withouted with the blessings of salvation. any assistance brought them to He then offered himself as a cansuch perfection, that those who didate to the church in Eaglesaw them were astonished, and street, of which the present Mr. convinced that the hand of na-Ivimey, the writer of The His. ture had formed him for an artist.tory of the English Baptists,” and His father being made acquainted other works, was pastor ; and the with this, and learning that noth-| following is the substance of the ing else would satisfy him, thought statement, in his own words, which it prudent not to cross his inclina-be made of himself to that Societion, and therefore went to Lon- ty, when, according to the custom don to seek out for him a suitable of congregational churches, they situation; and having succeeded required of him to give an account in getting him articled to a wood - l of his Christian experience, and engraver, returned home with a

his reasons for wishing to make a message that delighted the beart publick profession of religion. of his son. All necessary ar

"Being highly favoured by the rangemeuts having been made, in providence of God, I had the June, 1803, he took leave of his privilege and blessing of a religfriends : at which time his father | ious education ; which so far in. requested of hiin two things ; the fluenced me, that if my memory one was, to read his Bible, and fail not, I was the subject of early the other to attend divine worship convictions ; but no lasting imon the Sabbath ; which he ised to do. He then receive the pression being made on my mind,

continued in a state of alienaparting benediction, quitted the tion from God. - In June, 1803, all place of his nativity, and entered necessary matters being arranged the great town, where to him for my coming to London, my all was new and surprising, father, as I was about to take my

After his arrival in London, he leave of him, told me, he had put applied himself diligently to his my Bible into the box, which he work, and made rapid advances in wished me, as I valued my eternal the art. Thece laboure of his oe interest4. to make my principal cupation engaged his attention all studyunying at the same time

very affectionately, I hope now, || sinfulness of sin. Again I resolvas you are going beyond the reached to go to chapel : accordingly I of a parent's eye, to a place where went, and expected in the course you will be surrounded with snares of the sermon to be brought under and dangers, you will not fail to the most dreadful convictions, but attend the ministry of the gospel | found myself exceedingly disapevery Sunday; and I particularly pointed, and was very much afraid wish you to make Eagle-street I should never be converted. In chapel your constant place of hear- | about a fortnight I was visited ing. My poor aged grandmother with a slight illness, which brought likewise gave me this necessary with it terror and uneasiness of injunction with tears in her eyes. mind not to be described. If I atI believe I promised rigidly to ob- tempted to pray, my thoughts serve them, but the event has were filled with horrid blasphemy proved to my sorrow, that I aw-against the Almighty, insomuch fully broke my promise.

that I was afraid of being struck "On my arrival in London, I dead immediately. Oftentimes was introduced to circles appar- | did I wish myself any thing but a ently strangers to the power of re- human creature, and as often was ligion; and Sundays being the I ready to charge God with injusonly leisure time I had, were usu- tice in creating me to misery ; for ally spent in visiting, idle conver- at that time I thought if there were sation, and, what I have since an elect people, it was not my own thought, dreadful profanation, but fault if I was eternally lost. Evnot without some convictions ; ery night brought with it new horfor I remember feeling rather un- rors ; I was afraid to close my comfortable at spending Sabbath eyes, for fear of waking in hell : after Sabbath without once enter- | and then did I feel the dreadful ing a place of worship. At last I unbelief of my heart. I prayed formed a resolution of attending | earnestly to be enabled to believe constantly at Surrey Chapel ; but in Christ, but could not ; I thought after going twice, I was again at- it impossible that the Son of God tracted by gay company, which I should ever have died for sinners. thought preferable to religion. In this state I continued for some Here I must observe, that on re- time, being filled with the most trospection of my past conduct, I dreadful thoughts of God and recannot but admire the restraining | ligion, which I endeavoured to grace of God, whose power alone suppress ; till one night as I was withheld me from plunging into thinking of my unhappy condition, the depths of sin and wickedness, 1 happened to take up my Bible, which I well know was the natural and opened it at the sixty-first bent of my heart : often did I chapter of Isaiah : the following curse my folly for resisting oppor-words met my eyes : I will greattunities of running into the gross-ly rejoice in the Lord, my soul est sins.

shall be joyful in my God ; for he “ Thus I continued till the lat- hath clothed me with the garments of ter end of February, 1806. About | salvation, he hath covered me with this time, I resolved to read my the robe of righteousness. The Bible, which had laid for nearly effect this had on me I cannot exthree years useless. My mind press ; I wished myself alone to was then seriously impressed with give vent to my tears and joy; the thought of my being in a lost and thought then my proud, hard, condition, which led me to private and unbelieving heart was effectprayer, and to implore God that ually humbled and broken. With he would show me the exceeding Vjoy did I meditate on the words ;

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PREFACE.

In introducing the 7th Volume of the American Baptist Magazine to the publick, it is proper to remark, that a change in the proprietorship of the work will take place with the commencement of the year 1827. The reasons for this change are briefly as follows:

Upon the removal of the seat of the Board of Managers of the General Convention to Boston, it became evident that the interests of the Missions under their charge could not be successfully promoted except through the medium of a periodical work, for whose statements they were responsible, and of which the 's were in part, at least, devoted to he Missionary ry. It immediately occurred to the

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