That it is so tainted with mixtures of fin. O thou glorious husbandman, purge me by what means thy infinite wisdom sees best, so I may but glorify thee in deed and in truth, and not feek hateful felf. Lord, I hate myself, when I stand in competition with thee, and thy glory. Oh, take me out of self, in every shape and form. O ye glorious angels, and perfected spirits, who can glorify your God without any of these sinful mixtures; if poffible, exert yourselves yet more. O, adore and bow yet lower: And in God's time I will come and bear a part with you.-Refreshing thought! Lord keep me every step of the way; for I am forever thine.

Monday evening, April 21.--Thanks be to God, who has this day affisted me, and brought me through the day with courage and cheerfulness. Has added to my family another board.

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Lord, adopt her into thine own family. Give me grace and prudence to instruct her and all the rest; and open their understandings to receive instruction. O let there be a foundation of knowledge laid in their tender hearts, which may never be rased out. O, help me to travail in birth till Christ be found in them.

And while thou art calling me to be so much engaged for the good of my generation, enrich my own foul with the gifts and graces of thy.. blessed Spirit; and, for Jesus' fake, indulge me with near and intimate communion with thyfelf in the few precious moments I can redeem, that thou mayest be glorified in me. Lord, help me, and I will offer praise. And though thou standest

standest in no need of me; yet thou hast condescended to declare thyself glorified by the praises of poor worms of the duft, even here upon thy footstool. O let me bear my part: This shall be my greatest joy, to adore and praise thee. Am I not akin to the worshipping and adorning hosts above? Then let me refemble them; and not the murmuring crew beneath. O let me behave like those with whom I hope I shall forever dwell; and not like thine enemies, like those who hate thee, and wish in their hearts there were no God. Thou hast called me by the endearing name of friend, let me prove I am so of a truth, by keeping all thy commandments. O let me rejoice in thee, and give thanks at the remembrance of thy holilinefs

Friday morning, April 25.- O Lord, thou seest my weakness in body as well as mind; and how my vital strength fails; and I am finking under the weight of business: And yet the neceffities of my family oblige me to covet it. Lord, help, and lay no more on me, than thou wilt enable me with grace and patience to bear, to thy glory. O grant me so much businessso much fickness-so much health-so much poverty, and so much profperity, as will bring. me nearest to thyself, and most advance thy declarative glory; and no more of either; Lord, no more of any thing, than thou wilt fanctify, I beg for Jefus' fake: For, except thou fanctify, business will hurry, fatigue, fret, and carry off my heart from God. Sickness will clog, and utterly unfit for duty, fecret and fo

cial; and nothing will be attended to but an impatient complaining of aches, and weakness; an impatient, Jonah like spirit, wishing rather to die than live.. - Health will be wantonly spent in the delights of fenfe: I shall facrilegioufly waste that precious enjoyment, and rove from God among the creatures. Ah woful depravity! Ah bitter remains of enmity and contrariety to God, that will abuse every mercy! -Poverty, unfanctified, will make me murmur and complain, and care, and cark, and quarrel with the dispensations of thy allwise providence. Oh, cutting thought! Thou knoweft I shall murmur in my tent, and distrust thee in every thing, and impudently charge God foolishly; and hang down my hands, and unbelievingly cry, It will never be better than now! I shali bury all my mercies. They will be all loft in vile ingratitude; and I shall difhonor God all the day long. Oh, can I bear it! Lord, canst thou, wilt thou bear it! For Jesus' fake forbid. - Profperity will puff me up. Pride will rear up its venomous head; and I shall be glued to this world, and take up contentment in it, instead of laying up all my good in God.

But, Lord, sanctify, and all these shall work together for good, and bring me nearer thyself. For business, I will rejoice and bless thee; diligently attend, and rely on thee for a blessing, strength and success. In fickness, I will submit, and kiss the dear hand which strikes the blow. I will lie down and adore and praise, and cry, Thy will be done, when I cannot kneel kneel and wrestle. In health, I will arife, and with joy run the ways of thy commandments. I can do all things, Christ strengthening me. In poverty, I will trust thee, and eling to thee, and rejoice in thee as my only portion. Yea, though thou flay me, I will trust in thee. I will acknowledge the leaft morfel of good to be more than I deserve. And in profperity, my heart shall be lifted up in the way of the Lord.

Therefore, O my covenant God, sanctify all to me, and do with me what pleaseth thee. I have no choice to make but that by which thou wilt be most glorified. Lord, any thing, only poffefs my whole foul, fuffer no rivals, and it is enough. O keep me from the evil; for I am thine, forever thine. My ftrong tower, I fly to thee for protection this day, and all my days. O let me be fafe.

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Sabbath morning, April 27.-Now, my God, bring me again to stand still, and see the salvation of God. Thou knowest better than I can tell thee, how my way is again hedged up, and; I know not which way to turn. We are deeply. in debt already, and are obliged daily to plunge deeper, for the support of our family. But with, thee all things are poffible. All thy treasures are full, both in providence and grace, None, of thy stores are exhausted. How dark did ev ery thing appear a year ago! And yet thou didst to astonishment overrule, and bring re to rejoice in thy goodness. Thou hast chofen, my changes; change of help, and change of habitation. Delivered me from the unreasonable,

ble, in a quiet way; and thereby taken off many burdens which then preffed my spirits. And thou didst to my surprise provide for the winter, and brought me through it triumphing in thy goodness. And now help me to remember, that if my stores are empty, thine are not. What have I to do, but to caft my care on thee? Lord, help me, and take me near thyself this day. Strengthen my faith, and refign my will to thine, whatever it is; and then do with me whatever seemeth good to thee.

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Tuesday morning, May 13. Thanks be to God, I had my hands filled with business yefterday, and was brought through it with a degree of comfort and courage. More than fixty children now under my care, in this place, where I and others feared I mould not have business. Lord, I bless thee. Thou art with me whitherfoever I go. O, for Chrift's fake, qualify me, and make me faithful. And as thou knowelt my poor, weary body will require more rest, I pray thee let not the few moments for fecret devotion be squandered away; but grant me speedy access. O, meet me immediately. Grant me sweet communion, transforming views of thy adorable perfections.

O let me renew my choice and dedications; for thou art forever mine; and I am, and will be forever thine. O make me, as I delight to be, wholly devoted to thee in foul and body, and it is enough. Grant me this, and I ask for myself no more. O grant it for Christ's fake. Grant it, because he has faid, Whatever