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the table as usual, not knowing that I was complaining. When the victuals were brought, I got out of bed again, and with no small reluctance swallowed a little of the broth, but could neither taste bread nor meat, on account of a nausea, which, however, was not accompanied with any inclination to vomit.

I now staggered again to bed, and took up the book I had left there, in order to make one more effort to divert the attention of my mind from the uneasy sensations I felt; but could not read, as the letters on the book formed only a confused group of unsteady images. Now the confusion of my head increased so much, attended with such a noise in my ears, that all knowledge of what was present, as well as memory of the past, was soon entirely lost in a state of insensibility.

Fortunately, about this time, one of my young gentlemen came into the room, who told me afterwards, that I desired him to shut the windows, and then threw myself backward on the bed, where I lay a few minutes very quiet, then started up, sat on the side of it, and made some efforts to vomit, but threw nothing up; that I then flung myself back again with dreadful shrieks, fell into strong convulsions, foamed at the mouth, stared wildly, and endeavored to lay hold of and tear everything within my reach. This outrageous fit was succeeded by a calm, something similar to fainting, with this difference only, that my color was very florid. The servants, concluding me to be mad, durst not come near me, and therefore sent for my brother, who lived at a little distance. When he arrived and spoke to me, I awaked, as I thought, from a profound sleep, and had just sensibility enough to know him. My pulse beat 100 in a minute. Though I was recovered so much from the fit I have just now described as to know every one about me, what is strange is, I was entirely ignorant of my own actions, as well as of the place where I was.

At this time, feeling myself very warm, I got out of bed, threw myself down on the floor, and thinking myself refreshed by the cold of it, called for some cold water, and bathed my hands and face in it. This refreshed me a little, and in some degree quieted a tremor which had seized on every part of my body. I drank plentifully of warm water, and soon vomited; and though more than three hours had passed since I had taken the Camphor, the greatest part of it was evacuated, undissolved, along with the

water.

I mentioned before that I had not only lost all remembrance of my past actions, but also the knowledge of every present object; but I now began slowly to recover both, though in a manner so amazing, that my business, connections, and everything of the same nature, which I had entirely forgotten, at their first occurrence startled my mind, as if they were things I had never before been acquainted with; and what is still more extraor dinary, after I knew every one of my family, I did not recollect the use of any part of the furniture of my own room; and every object on which I cast my eyes appeared as strange and new to me as if I had only that moment begun my existence.

Whether it was owing to the vomiting or to the Camphor I know not, but I was now affected with a pretty severe headache, which disturbed me a good deal all the evening. Between 5 and 6 o'clock the giddiness of my head, singing in my ears, excessive heat and tremor, which had been so severe on me before, were now considerably abated, but far from being entirely gone. About 7 o'clock Dr. Monro returned to visit me, and found

my pulse reduced from 100 strokes in a minute to 80. We now applied a thermometer to my stomach, and in half an hour the mercury arose two degrees above blood-warm; it was then changed from my stomach to the doctor's, and in half an hour the mercury fell more than one degree.

Between 8 and 9 o'clock, feeling myself still very much confused, I went to bed, and soon after fell into a very calm and easy sleep, which continued till next morning, with much less interruption than usual. When I awaked, I found my headache quite gone, though a little of the confusion in it still remained. Some time after this, upon going to stool, I was extremely costive, though I had not been so before; nor did I feel anything of it afterwards. All that day I had a very great soreness and rigidity over my whole body, as if I had been exposed to cold, or undergone some severe exercise; but this, with all the other symptoms, went off entirely in a few days. Hoffman mentioned a case where half a drachm given to a healthy man, neither augmented his natural heat, quickened his pulse, brought on thirst, or occasioned any uneasy sensation whatever; and another, where two scruples, almost as soon as swallowed, gave a remarkably severe headache, an extreme coldness, pale countenance, languid pulse, a cold sweat over the head, loss of memory, etc. Monsieur Duteau relates that one drachm was given to a girl in a very severe colic. After taking it, the pain soon became easter, but it brought on such an extreme cold over all her body, as resembled death, which could hardly be removed by the assistance of warm cloths wrapt round her, and the internal use of wine,.-Violent headache, sickness, and inability to work for two months,.-Violent pain in the head and through the temples, accompanied with an indescribable sensation of sinking and exhaustion, as though her breath were leaving her (immediately); flushed face, eye suffused with blood, pupils dilated, extremities cold, pulse full, soft, and about 40, breathing laborious, and a constant putting of the hand to the top of the head, and again to the stomach, as though suffering great pain in both of those organs, the brain and the stomach. In addition to these symptoms there was a total loss of speech for the time being; but notwithstanding the power of speech was lost, her hearing remained unimpaired, so that she understood every inquiry that was made, and nodded her head in confirmation or denial of all questions asked her (after four hours),73.

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Authorities. 28, Th. Gautier, History of Dreams, Visions, etc., Brierre de Boismont, M.D., Phil., 1855, chap. xiv, p. 334 (S. A. Jones, Am. Hom., Obs., vol. xii, 1875, p. 409); 46 (Berridge), Pharm. Journ. and Trans., 1841, vol. vi., p. 127, a medical friend tried it in several cases; 47 (Berridge), La Presse, June 22d, 1845, two dervishes took it after concluding their prayers; 48 (Berridge), Mr. Bartlett, Pharm. Journ. and Trans., 1847, vol. vi, p. 70, a young man took a small dose of extract; 49 (Berridge), Chas F. Hodson, Med. Times and Gaz., 1852, vol. iv, p. 450, a boy took 1 to 14 grains extract five or six times daily for tetanus; 50, Bost. Med. and Surg. Journ, vol. xlvii, 1852, p. 218, a druggist took 6 grains; 51, History of Dreams, Visions, etc., Brierre de Boismont, M.D., Phil., 1855, chap. xiv, p. 334 (S. A. Jones, Am. Hom. Obs., vol. xii, 1875, p. 409); 52, John G. Bell, M.D., Bost. Med. and Surg. Journ., vol. Ivi, 1857,

p. 211, took a moderately large dose of extract with coffee; 53, Obs. sur Le Chanvre Indigéne, by Prosper Albert, Strasbourg, 1859, took 0.03 grm.; 54, ibid., took 0.02 grm.; 55, ibid., M. L. took 0.03 grm.; 56, ibid., M. L. took 0.15 grm.; 57, ibid., M. C. took 25 milligrams; 58, ibid., same, took 0.35 grm.; 59, F. H. Brown, M.D., Bost. Med. and Surg. Journ., vol. lxvii, 1862, p. 291, C. C. took 6 grains of solid extract within one hour and a quarter; 60 (Berridge), Mr. Shirley Hibbard, Intell. Obs., 1863, vol. ii, p. 435, took about a drachm on a July evening; 61, G. B. Kuykendall, M.D., Phil. Med. and Surg. Rep., vol. xxxii, 1875, p. 421, took about 1 grain just before dinner; 62, Berridge, U. S. Med. Invest., 1876, N. S., vol. iv, p. 574, Mr. took 1 drachm of tinct.; 63, Mr. Maximovitch, Meditsinsky Vestorick (Hom. World, vol. xii, 1877, p. 226); 64 (Berridge), David Urquhart, The Pillars of Hercules, vol. ii, p. 122; 65, Berridge, Organon, vol. i, 1878, p. 335, Madden and Desgenettes, general effects.

Mind. I soon became conscious of a sense of disappointment. I said, "That was not Hasheesh, but some preparation of chocolate." I took my pen to write an indignant letter to my friend who had procured it, that he might know that I had not become an easy dupe to his plan for deceiving me. I was at a loss how to begin the letter, though otherwise always ready at writing, even when fatigued, as I then was, from sitting up two successive nights reading Jacob Behmen. For a moment I paused, considering, and then the parietal bones expanded widely, as if parting at the sutures, and again collapsed with a sort of shuffling sound. I said, "This is the result of fatigue; I have read too hard, I will go to bed." As I rose from my table I became conscious of an agreeable state of warmth and lightness, I felt as if I had taken Scotch whiskey. The room seemed larger than usual, and getting larger and larger still; some skulls of animals on the walls acquired colossal proportions, and the conviction entered my mind that I had realized an old dream of living in the midst of the monsters of the oolitic period, and that I had been awestruck for years, immovable, paralyzed, and with every faculty benumbed except that of wonder! I caught sight of my watch hanging in front of some papers on the wall, and it at once dispelled the illusion. I calmly looked at it, and found it was just twenty minutes since I took the Hasheesh. Immediately the watch expanded to vast dimensions, and its ticking sounded through my head like the pulsation of a world. I knew now for the first time that I was under the influence of the drug, and began to make a few notes in pencil. Suddenly my limbs seemed benumbed, my toes shrunk within my slippers, my fingers became like the long legs of a convulsed spider; I dropped the pencil and walked to the window. The landscape was so sublime that I forgot the cause of the illusion in my admiration of the magical scene. The horizon was removed to an infinite distance, but was still discernible, and the sunset had marked it out with myriads of fiery circles, all revolving, mingling together, expanding, and then changing to an aurora, which shot up to the zenith and fell down in sparks and splashes among the trees, which at once became illuminated, and the whole scene was grand beyond description, with fires of every conceivable color. All this time the landscape continued to expand; everything grew, as I looked on, to greater and greater proportions. Trees shot up higher and higher, their branches overspread the sky; they met together and became a confused mass; the lights, which just before had glowed on every hand, changed to a

general purple haze. A sense of twitching in every limb, coupled with a feeling of weariness and depression, caused me to turn aside and sit down. The twitching changed to a sharp pricking sensation, most violent in the extremities, and for the moment the thought occurred to me that I had been poisoned by Strychnine. I opened a drawer to find an emetic, but the drawer had gone, and in its place sat one of my antediluvian monsters grinning at me, a real ichthyosaurus, with a red cap on its head, and with drum and pandean pipes. For about six weeks, so at the time I determined the period, it played a monotonous tune, while I sat on the ground laughing and enjoying the idea of my fingers and toes being elongated into claws, when suddenly the thought seized me that I would destroy the illusion by an effort. I dashed at the monster, and my head fell on the handle of the drawer. The dream was dissolved; I could clearly understand the ticking of my watch, and the singing of a bird in the garden, were the real sounds which my fancy had changed to drums and pipes of my oolitic companion. I once more looked at my watch, and though years seemed to have elapsed since the spell began, I found the real period to be but twenty-five minutes. This last act of observing the time again threw me off my balance, I said, "Twenty-five minutes, twenty-five days, twenty-five months, twenty-five years, twenty-five centuries, twenty-five sons; now I know it all, I am the alchemist who discovered the elixir of life in the dark ages, and I shall live forever. What is time to me? Yes, that was the elixir I took twenty-five minutes ago to experience a sensation, and there it goes round the room." It made me giddy to see it whirl like a wheel, of which I was the centre. There was a bust of Milton on the shelf, which had changed to the face of Jacob Behmen, and it sat on one of the spokes of the wheels, and smiled upon me with such a smile of peace and satisfaction that I shouted "Ha, ha!" The wheel revolved; it became brilliant with fiery coruscations; and by degrees the centre where I sat became the circumference, and I was whirled with it, my head opening and shutting, so that I could feel the cold air on my brain; my breath getting short and difficult, my chest falling, as if crushed by a weight, and my stomach gnawed by rats. This went on for ages; yet I knew all the while where was, and how the whole thing had happened, and actually got up, rang the bell, and ordered some coffee, though not for an instant did the illusion cease, nor, so far as I ever learnt, did the servant who answered me discover any signs of my aberration. I thought of the coffee as likely to relieve the sense of oppression and disorder, which was now fast dispelling the illusion by its reality. I felt my pulse and tried to count it. I knew afterwards that it was full and rapid; but at the time the throbs were like the heaving of mountains, and the numbers would multiply themselves, so that as I counted "one, two, three," they became "one, two, three years, centuries, ages," and I literally shrieked with the overpowering thought that I had lived from all eternity, and should live to all eternity, in a palace of colored stalactites, supported by shafts of emerald resting on a sea of liquid gold, for this was now the appearance of things, and the gnawing at my stomach suggested the idea that I should be starved to death, and yet live the deformed wreck of a deluded man. At this moment there was a tap at the door, and the servant entered with the coffee. It was in a huge tankard, chased all over with dragons, that extended all round the world, and I saw the odor of it play round her in circles of light, and for at least an hour she stood smiling and hesitating where to place it, because my table

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was covered with papers. I very calmly removed a few of the papers, and heaved a sigh that dissipated the dragons, made the odors fall in a shower of rain, and she put down the tray with a crash that made every bone in my body vibrate, as if struck by ten thousand hammers. I know not whether she was alarmed at my appearance, but she stood apparently aghast, and her rosy face expanded to the size of a balloon, and away she went with the rapidity of lightning, with Mr. Green in the car, and I stood applauding in the midst of thousands of lamps, which I had time to note, as the scene continued during a period which seemed indefinite, were all glow-worms, which I could touch, and they communicated to my fingers phosphorescent sparks, as if they had been rubbed with Lucifer matches.† But I knew this was unreal, and I drank the coffee with the most perfect composure, though I felt it difficult to pour it out without spilling it, and the cup came to my lips as if it were the rim of a caldron, seething with a stew of spices and nepenthe; and amid the steam I could see the fierceness and tartness and prima materia of Jacob Behmen, all displayed, so that there was an end of the mystery, and I could see into his brain, as he now seemed to be looking into mine. The moment I sipped the coffee it darted through me, and caused sensation of insupportable heat. The gnawing sensation of stomach and contraction of chest gave way to a sense of pricking, most violent in fingers and toes, and yet, though painful, this was all pleasant; and though I could now collectively observe the objects around me, yet they would transport themselves to immeasurable distances, and keep continually dilating in size; and though I looked at my watch, and saw that only forty minutes had elapsed, yet there was a secret persuasion in my mind that a period of at least forty centuries had gone by since I broke off a fragment of Hasheesh, and committed myself to this dream. There seemed to be now only one effect of the drug remaining, and that was a sense of warmth all over the body, and a tendency in my head to expand and fill the room. But my arms dropped down; I could not keep them up without great and painful effort. I finished the coffee, experienced less of the pricking sensation than at first, and then rose and went to bed. I could walk without difficulty, though my legs were immensely long, and felt as if they would presently be cramped, so that I should cry out. As I undressed myself, my clothes would fly from me far away into boundless space, and become wandering stars; the buttons of my vest glittered in the firmament like Orion, but much more vast and splendid. I did not dare to look out of the window. I endeavored to control myself, for I began to feel a sense of dread. As I got into bed the bed extended. As I lay down at full length, I myself extended; and as soon as I shut my eyes I felt that I covered the space of the whole earth. I had a sense of indescribable pain all over me. My skin seemed to move to and fro upon my flesh; my head swelled to awful dimensions, and I parted in two from head to foot; became two persons, each throbbing, breathing hard, sighing loudly, and lost in a commixture of ethereal, yet agonizing, colors and sounds. These seemed to continue for ages; but I was really asleep, and I never could call to mind at what time I went to

Only a few days before I had found some glow-worms in the garden, and on handling them, found my fingers tipped with a dull phosphoric glow. This probably gave rise to the illusion. In fact, I afterwards traced many of my sensations during the paroxysm to previous events, and almost believe the illusions are the result of abnormal memory.

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